Matthew 11:28

If I could sleep I might dream of wonderful things.

Instead my body keeps waking me up hour after hour and for the past three days I have seem 3:58am and 5:42am and 6:03am all to often flash brightly in my eyes. No calls, no messages, no sounding alarms...but you still continue to want my attention. What is out there that I need to find; that cannot be found in my dreams? You wake me. With hot flashes, fears, a knotted stomach. I want to go back to my dreams. Back to the peaceful still of my body as it rests. 

Rest. Rest. Rest.

–noun

1.	the refreshing quiet or repose of sleep: a good night's rest.

2.	refreshing ease or inactivity after exertion or labor: to allow an hour for rest.

3.	relief or freedom, esp. from anything that wearies, troubles, or disturbs.

4.	a period or interval of inactivity, repose, solitude, or tranquillity: to go away for a rest.

5.	mental or spiritual calm; tranquillity.

6.	the repose of death: eternal rest.

7.	cessation or absence of motion: to bring a machine to rest.

8.	Music. a. an interval of silence between tones. b. a mark or sign indicating it.

Poetry and a not so poet

I want my own home. 

White crisp sheets on my bed with a hint of canary yellow in the embroidery of the pillows. 

Flyaway Blue walls and wide open windows. 

Cold wood floors that sing as I move along their panels. 

I open my eyes and the sunlight rushes in;

Into all the darkness of my past.

'I am light and light I shall remain'

'I am light and light I shall remain'

There it sits, peaceful and still

Four porcelain legs holding all my weight as I sink 

Into a blanket of sudsy water.

Lavender and Chamomile trace over my senses 

My resting place

Where joy and love abound

This is my home.

could it be conspiracy

I am starting to think that the government might want us to be having babies. It's alright with me. There is a new movie coming out following a few babies from birth to year 1 in life. This seems so strange to me that this movie has made it to the theaters. Then I watch the television and everyone on reality tv is going into labor. There are tons of new show about unexpected pregnancy stories, having babies at 15, having 18 babies, birthing stories, designing babies rooms, adopting babies and countless others.

I'm not sure what's going on, but what ever it is, I like it.

The darkness cannot say to the light, I will not go. When the light comes darkness has to flee.

As I sat listening to this song today I wanted to sink into the floor I was laying on. I am captured (the imagery of this word is so strong) by the faith in the words of this song. Sometimes I feel that faith is hard to hold onto, then discouragement sets in and I feel trapped in this glass box where I can see what I want and it is so close to me but I can never get to it. However, these words have helped me to break through the glass today and an overwhelming love has rushed into me. 


Let faith arise, oh Lord, let faith arise
In the deepest parts of my being, oh Lord
In the most broken parts of me, oh Lord
Friends have failed me Lord, let my faith arise
Loved ones have failed me Lord, let my faith arise
Heroes have failed me Lord, let my faith arise
Let my faith arise
I say no to the discouragement that keeps me down
I say no to the things that keep me back from You
And this broken heart inside of me
Broken in so many pieces
By so many circumstances
I say no to just letting it stay that way
Because I'm learning to trust that it's not You that hurt me
I'm learning to believe that it's not You that deserted me
I'm believing that You still love me
Brokenness and all
I'm believing that You've got a plan for me
I'm believing that You will restore me
I believe that You will awaken my soul
And let, let faith arise again, I believe
I believe like a little child again
I'm gonna dance in my trust in You, oh Lord
I'm gonna dance in my love for You, oh Lord
I'm gonna laugh again
I'm gonna cry again
I'm gonna have joy, joy on the inside
Circumstances around me try to pull me down
I'm going to believe in that faith again
because You're my Creator
You're my Comfort
You're the One that will never desert me
So Daddy, I raise my hands up to You Lord
I raise my hands up to You, oh Lord
And I dance with my feet, I dance with my feet
And I say, come and, come and hold me Lord
Because I'm learning to trust You with the faith of a child
Trust You with the faith of a child
I can have joy again like a child
I'm not going to let it come down
I'm not going to let those bullets come down
Come down and hurt me no more
Because I'm raising up the Shield of Faith
And the Sword of the Lord
I'm believing on your Word Lord
I'm trusting in the Word that You said
And I'm waiting on You
Waiting on You
And I'm rejoicing in the fact that the Bible says
That You are my Victorious Warrior
You're the one that fights for me
I don't have to fight anymore
You're the one that fights for me, oh Lord
My faith is rising, my faith is rising, my faith is rising
I can see You again Lord.
I can see You on the horizon of my life, oh Lord
I can see Your Son, it's rising up
And I don't have to be discouraged anymore
And I don't have to fight this loneliness anymore
Because You're in my life, You're in my life more than anyone can ever be
Father we're building a relationship again, just me and You
It's not about the job I have
It's not about the friends I have
Its' not about the house I have or the social status I have
It's about me and You
We're building a relationship again, just me and You
You're building my faith up again
Let faith arise.

Jason Upton "Faith"

Lace+Petals

Lately I have been very inspired to make my own hair accessories. I have been saying I will do this for a while but the overwhelming thought of trying to get it all together has stopped me. The Urban Craft Uprising was today and I got great ideas and tons of inspiration. So right afterwards I went to Jo-Anns to get all the necessities to finally put them together! Here is the turn out...tons more to come!