Spit it out

Through writing I learn patience. I have so much to say and I need to write it but I, unlike others, cannot write and go back and rewrite it with the same heart and make it better. I need to write, revise, edit, correct and finalize it in one process. I am halted at clicking my pen thoughtfully and cannot move further. So I won't write. But when will I learn to move in steps instead of feeling the need to complete everything at once.

-maybe this is writers block. -frustrating